Start of Something New: Spring Semester 2010

Inspiration is a funny thing. At least I think so. I may or may not have been Facebook stalking someone and stumbled upon a blog of a student who goes here. It's good....very good. And I got inspired. The thing is...this person wouldn't normally inspire me. Not until I stripped away every pre-concieved notion of them, and viewed them as a fellow artist, did I realize that inspiration can come from the most UN-likely places. And that brings me to my next point. I need to stop judging people. It's a "joke" in the theater department that Starleisha judges everyone. Sometimes it's true. Other times...I am FALSELY accused. So. That's something I can work on. Yes...I believe it is.

Anyway, the spring semester started today. I had one class at 11:30. With Jim. And his wife Janel. And i might have been late. About 5 minutes late. It was funny We all laughed. Of course my mother didn't find it amusing when I told her. I have yet to receive all of my text-books (who needs them anyway?)

And tonight was the first dress rehearsal of "You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown." I sat in on it to take notes for tomorrow night's photo-call (which I'm apparently co-shooting...?). I'm excited to get back into the swing of cameras. The choreographer has a brand new Cannon Rebel with at telephoto lens that she is going to bring and [allow] me to play with. This excites me very much. I'm also taking my FujiFilm camera. Provided of course I remember to charge the batteries in the morning. The cast is FABULOUS. So much talent, so much heart so much FUN. They all did such a great job, and I cried at the end....and I will continue to cry every time I see this SHOW. So. Good.

Oh-- I almost forgot (i wish i could forget):

The theater festival I went to...? Yea, not so much. I had LOADS of fun hanging out with my Messiah friends, and the Irene Ryan Competition went really really well. One of our competitors got named as the alternate SEMI-FINALIST. Cool stuff right there. But the rest of the festival COMPLETELY changed my view of theater. I realized that academic theater is not a world I want to be in {Good thing I'll eventually graduate, right?} Mostly because I'm a person who needs people. But don't confuse that with needy. I can be needy, but that is not my forefront personality. I simply must have friends who support me, and who I can support. At this festival, I personally did not get that vibe. And it's IRONIC that I want to be an actress because person after person, after EVERY PERSON has told me that theater is a lonely world. 8 show weeks, Holiday shows, no free weekends. Being SEPARATED from the person you love for weeks at a time.... and I'm a person who needs people.

SO that being said...why do i act? why do i do what i do? It's simple really (i think....?):

"Art is an expression of joy and awe. It is not an attempt to share one's virtues and accomplishments with the audience, but an act of selfless spirit." --David Mamet

So THAT is why i DO what i DO.

i do it out of selfless spirit.

not for fame.

or recognition.

but to share my love for theater

WITH OTHERS.